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I, Bitch

by Transstar

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1.
I, Bitch 04:10
Here I am again Dissolving at my escritoire Feels like you’re not a fan But let no one say that you are One of the special people who’s unsure what’s allowed, lost in the crowd When you’re all alone in the room I don’t care if you’re gonna drag my name through the ditch I don’t mind if you find the outfit hard to forgive I don’t care if you go and come back when I am rich I’m gonna live I, bitch Here you are again Peering into my boudoir And not making out who I am You try to get the lay of the land And you can’t get arrested New things make you feel sad Real girls make you mad Small wonder you don’t understand I don’t care if you’re gonna drag my name through the ditch I don’t mind if you find the outfit hard to forgive I don’t care if you go and come back when I am rich I’m gonna live I, bitch Look deep into these eyes If you can get your gaze that high I don’t apologize ‘cause your little violin just won’t wet my eye No more Mr. Nice Girl I’m through being polite The fight is tonight Tomorrow, I hold up the sky I, bitch
2.
Untraceable 03:55
Are you ready to rise like a thousand suns? Are you ready to shine for the shrouded ones? There’s only so far you can go with a rainbow Some see the colours, some only see red You came like a star, don’t go as a Jane Doe Unsung, unloved, unremembered, untraceable Are you all set to meet the unmet friend? Have you got the juice for an uneasy truce to end? Remain at your post, hold your formation Stand where we can see you, stay in the light For country and queen obey this regulation No one here goes home alone tonight, untraceable Bring yourself to the day Leave the dark to the anguished Tell me what you’re made of Show me your might We can stand fast or stand still and be vanquished But we can’t go down without a fight, untraceable
3.
Have you seen your heart? ’Cause it looks like it's breaking Don't look away It won't take a minute Hearts break this way If you're speaking your part and your voice is shaking Distance has a way of saying the thing you can’t say 20,000 leagues from the scene of your so-called birth Lies a regal square of earth For its first queen and last king Waiting there There for the asking Are we weary yet of the blank verses reeled off in our name? Spoken, outspoken, so loud and so lame Free to forget their particular curse is thinking we’re all the same One hot date, one live wire, one dead name, one hundred million miles from the need for a secret face Witnesses stand each in place for the final unmasking They stand for you there, witnesses for the asking Must I choose or choose to pretend? And which one means good news at the end? Getting out gets wise when the lies hit a three-plus peak Here the loudest thing we speak is truth everlasting And it’s waiting to be told For the asking
4.
Yours 03:47
You’ve been in the wars And those two little doors Won’t keep you from yours Dearest of ones Get up, it’s a school day Nearest of suns You’re definitely not okay We’ve got the room on all fours Another carload of unendurable bores You’ve been in the wars A gaggle of sophomores Between you and yours Dearest of friends Get down, it’s a school night We’re burning it at both ends We’re definitely not all right And if they get in our drawers And things go off-course Ride for that pair of white doors And if you come off your horse It won’t matter, of course Happy landings at yours You may fling woo at Delilah until your fingers are raw You may subside on the Roche-Bobois It doesn’t matter who scores Because two little doors Can’t keep you from Shan’t keep you from Yours
5.
Girl Enough 04:11
All God’s palookas get a heart, a neck, a code, a rule I’ll break every one you’ve got I’ll pull your hair I don’t fight fair I’m not what’s taught in school They shoo wrong girls away But they don’t say the right ones ain’t so hot Being a runaway isn’t all child’s play They made us the same way Fight the woman you can see, not the one I’m going to be It’s not as though you don’t know the first thing about me You can say that I’m all show You can say I play too rough You know you know you can’t say I’m not girl enough Have you heard the one about the one who came to fix me She got nothing for her pain I’ll take my chances with that catchweight that can’t wait to nix me I didn’t just arrive to take a dive at the first sign of rain Put a right to the body if you don’t love what you see It’s not as though you know every last thing about me Tell me I am just okay That I don’t possess the stuff Have your say But don’t tell me I’m not girl enough I don’t need the explainer I’m not your speed I’m your entertainer You can’t kid an old campaigner What a ticket we would make Every last card girl’s toe curled It’s not as though we have all the time in the world At the conclusion of the bout when you’re toughest of the tough I’m down, not out You just can’t knock out this Girl enough
6.
When the long day closes in And the night begins to fall Something’s there to warm itself Up against your bedroom wall She comes for the dying She comes for the living There for the taking, not for the giving Now you can’t wait any more for the wolf at the door What are you worrying for but the wolf at the door? A life so unforgiving it’s not even living If the shark has teeth like razors Children don’t go near the shore As the wolf just looks over your shoulder And waits for you to hit the floor You won’t hear her ringing You won’t see her come in Pain is a detail when they make you a woman You can’t just live anymore with the wolf at the door is it you you’re living for, or the wolf at the door? A season so unforgiving we’re not really living So you can go on lying or you can go on living Let there be no more crying Let there be no misgiving That for the dying This for the living So why should you wait and lay down all you adore for the wolf at the door? What are you lingering for? That’s the world out your door And she made it unforgiving So you know That you’re living

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released February 14, 2023

The songs are mixed by Chris Tait with the singular exception of 'I, Bitch' which is mixed by the exceptional Ian Boddy.

The songs are mastered by Harry Hess.

The bass guitar on 'Wolf At The Door' is played by Edith Wilson.

The songs are written and performed by Transstar.

The songs are produced by Transstar and Chris Tait.

Untraceable contains samples from 'Conversation with 12 year old black female, Washington, DC' by Ralph Fasold, Ralph W. and Lynne Postell, Lynne. Retrieved from Citizen DJ, Center for Applied Linguistics collection AFC 1986/022, American Folklife Center, Library of Congress.

Transstar offers up her thanks to Coral Andrews, Lakyn Barton, Emmalia and Sarafina Bortolon-Vettor, Sophie Brown, Gary Craig, Daniel Fischlin, Ben Grossman, David Lane, Jenny MItchell, Scarlett Raczycki, Tobin James Stewart and Bry Webb.

Special thanks go to our colleague and friend, the preternaturally wise T. Thomason.

I, Bitch is a Park Music production.

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Transstar Guelph, Ontario

Transstar builds bold beats and sings twisted pop.

Transstar has made original electronic pop since always. CBC's Brave New Waves aired her cassette demos in the 1980s. She released a beat-free electronic CD, Score For Life" in 1997. Transstar is the creator of Blackball, which delivers electronic music to at-risk community members.

Transstar is proud to be on the independent Park Music label.
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